This school year is in fast forward it seems. My life is in fast forward, suddenly I am feeling forty, flabby and freaked. This is the year I am supposed to make some major changes and become a new person... smaller and whatever. It isn't happening. I am so in love with food I guess, I dunno.
School is school and still a freakin hour away in traffic which sucks. Winter in Texas sucks too.
Kids are good. They are not liking how hard school is getting, they would like to escape back to the country where they feel life is sooooooo much easier, or whatever I dunno. I think moving here was good for Taylor although he hates it the most, but hard on Tyler because she struggles with school. It seems so advanced for her and so average for him. But both are struggling. They love the social side of life, have tons of friends and such. John is home more now. He is in office job (leadership type job) so that keeps him busy.
I haven't made lots of friends at school because like every other job, teachers are competitive and backstabbing. I mostly try to stay central and do my job well. I play a lot with the students, and they are quite fun.
I am not reading lately. I have found I want to be more stylish, and graceful. Which I am working on a lot. But ultimately I think Grace is something you are born with and not just something you can be. But I have been reading books about HOW To not look OLD. Thinking in my small mind, it could help, hell anything could help. LOL!!
I walk my dogs a lot still. It's nice to be alone and get away from the parents who are still living with us down stairs, and the teenagers who are still living with us of course upstairs. LOL. We had a great Christmas, we stayed home and had others visit us. It was fun. John's parents moved back from the Island of St. Thomas and they live in Dallas now and love it. So that is nice to have them around again.
I thought about going back to college and priced it and decided i need to pay off a few things before that happens. (like everything...but o.k.)
My daddy built me a giant swing in my back yard. Since we can not afford to put the back porch on the house right away, he built a swing and of course it is HUGE but I love it. I love the projects my dad likes to do. He is doing o.k. up here, but he sits in his chair a lot and I wonder if he is happy. He watches TV almost ALL day long. He likes to do little projects like work on the bikes, or build something. He really likes to help the neighbors with stuff. I didn't know he was so social with neighbors.
I now swing daily unless it is too cold. Yesterday the weather was like 30 and today a whopping 70. Its crazy. Ice on Friday, sunburn on Saturday. LOL!!
I read an interview last week with the actress, Diane Lane. She was saying that the reason she isn't married is because she felt, when she was with a man, she gave up herself to be what he wanted or what she thought he would want, and so she never really felt real with her now ex-husband. She was like 50 and adopted her two kids on her own. So that is neat. I thought for a long time I don't like her much, but lately I kind of do. I know I feel like that a lot when john is around, I try to be what he wants. Is that normal? I dunno, is he trying to be what I want? damn thats a big question...
Mmm is the same opinionated self. She is a huge help in the house department. She cooks, cleans and does all the laundry. Dinner is ready when I come home, oh and she shops for us buys all the food and such. I know it is every womans dream to have all that done for you but someday's when you know you are eating the leftovers, from two weeks ago, that you just want to do something YOURSELF. I miss cooking what I want. I do when they take little trips which so far since September has ONLY been 2 days. NOt that I am counting or anything....
well i should go find something to focus my brain on a while, lately it has not been settled to read, or write, or draw, or scrap, or paint. It has been jumping from place to place.
I shall go surf livejournal and find interesting writers....